Today I realized I have so much more power than I did before. As a result of what I experienced today and hell, my whole life, I had urges to crash and end it all when I was driving home. Just thinking of how easy it would be to just end it; no more problems, no stress, no pressure, no more people to constantly keep in check. No more getting annoyed of other people too. All of which my one day consisted of. It all just builds up and builds up and then I realized just with one accident I could end it all.
I also thought of the satisfaction suicide can bring, not only that my problems would be erased, but that it would open so many people’s eyes. Yes, death, I believe, would bring so many people to the best lesson. The lesson to realize that each day is potentially your last day or someone’s last day so you better realize that what you do or say to someone or yourself could end up in death. Death brings up the reality that one little thing can hurt someone. That satisfaction of knowing that someone is in so much guilt with something they can’t give you back.. Which is your life.. Is the best life lesson to give to someone who’s treated you wrong. Whether they’d attend your funeral or just have a little thought about you, there will be some bit of guilt in there. This is the only way I see fit that would actually teach this horrid society of peace, having nothing against someone. But how horrible is it that the best life lesson actually costs someone else’s life?